Pands.

It is bitter-sweet. Even more so than the day I came to Colombia. Two lives that were intertwined together for many years are now, most likely to be forever separated. Separated not because of our own doing, but rather the Lord's direction in our steps. A best friend is one that can never be severed from your heart...but the idea of never being able to live life again with her, to season through life together with her, causes my heart to ache and wish for it to become as it once was.

But alas...I have to let go. I thought I had. I thought me moving away and being independent was a sign of just that. But tonight with the great news of the journey that lies ahead of her, I can't help but think what I just might be forever losing. My closest friend.

Maybe all is not lost. Maybe I'm a bit sentimental. Maybe, I'm just selfish in my extreme loneliness to have a friend alongside of me for the remainder of my time on earth. What ever it is...sadness still rises up in me, accompanied with great gratitude for vision and direction in her life.

So it is bitter-sweet.